Saturday, February 5, 2011

Is the grass greener over there?

I have been sequestered into the corner at one end of my kitchen table, my back to the wall and my house before me in need of a good cleaning. My mom and niece, Alyssa, have been out visiting for the past ten days and my mom has definitely helped keep me up with dishes and laundry and for that I am very thankful. It is now the paper clutter, the toys and the what-nots that have been allowed to remain in place where they have been for several weeks now. How I wish Mary Poppins would come visit me, snap her fingers and sing her tune and everything would return to or create a place for themselves and my house would be clean for a change. A girl can dream can’t she!

How I wish for the decent spring days to come and settle on this frozen North Coast. (I am still following the same thought, just stay with me.) I am envious of those who speak of sunshine, warmth, and enjoying the outdoor activities that I can only dream of at this time; just like I am envious of those who possess the secret of keeping their houses spotless or at least decent enough for company. It would appear that the grass is greener on the other side of my fence, however, I have come to the conclusion that the grass over there isn’t any greener than mine I have just refused to look at my own grass and see it’s greenness over here.

Would I love to switch my pasture to one that isn’t known for its snow and freezing winter temperatures, absolutely! I would also love to switch occupational pastures now that I have graduated from college. However, I am working to be content where God has placed me (us) so that I do not miss out on any opportunity to ‘grow’. I would like to stop looking at ‘obstacles’ as mountains and more as opportunities for God to show me (us) His ability to work miracles.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Happy 50th Wedding Anniversary!!

I now understand what a great accomplishment it is for a couple to celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary. One can be assured that it wasn't 50 years of wedded bliss, or a ride on cloud nine. It would be unreal to say that a marraige that survived for 50 years was without its difficulties.

No I haven't just attended an anniversary party nor can I think of a couple who has recently celebrated a 50th anniversary. I draw this conclusion by looking at my own marraige and its measley, almost, 13 year length. My husband and I have come across some very rocky terrain, cut trails through some overgrown jungles when the thoughts of 'throwing in the towel' were entertained if only for a moment. I have had to learn that there is more in this life than just me, and God strengthens us to persevere through the darkest of times.

There should be a book written about these couples that endure each other for 50 long years. Their secrets should be documented and framed for those of us who are mere newlyweds compared to them. On April 4th of this year my husband and I will reach our 13th wedding anniversary which means we have only 37 more years to go to reach the golden 50. It seems like a lifetime away, and many things can happen during those years to turn a marraige sour. Our story has yet to be written. I am left holding the hand of God and praying for my husband, praying for our marraige and praying that God will guide me to be the wife my husband needs me to be.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

New Years Thoughts

Here I sit, poised and ready to type, doing semi-circles in my rotating desk chair hoping to stir something up from the bottom of my thoughts. Not only is it a new year as in 2011 but it is also the beginning of my 37th year on earth, mind you I am only turning 36 today. The idea of forming new habits and new goals is still fresh in my mind from the New Year celebrations which have been archived less than two weeks ago.

My house sits in need of attention, I am barely scraping by on good parenting, and my mind is filled of warmer temperatures and sunshine filled skies. My award winning question for the new year is, "Lord what do you have for me (us)?" I have a list of things I want to do and a litany of things I don't want to be stuck doing.

Well this post has stretched my mind enough for the hour. I still have one child to usher off to school and I sit here forcing my eyelids to stay open.